Here in Isaiah 41:14, we see God bringing encouragement to his people: “Fear not, thou worm Jacob, and ye men of Israel; I will help thee, saith the Lord, and thy redeemer, the Holy One of Israel.” I’ve recently been encouraged by this text. Being a pedophile is almost exactly like being a worm. Worms live below the surface of … Read more

It has been a sad thing, watching American culture slowly unravel. Many people have called this a polarization spiral – something married couples do when things aren’t working out. She pursues him with criticism, and in response, he moves away and shuts down causing her to pursue him with further criticism. However I don’t believe this to be an apt … Read more

For the longest time I had been feeling this way. Whenever I read the Bible, nothing seemed to stand out to me. Whenever I’d spend time in prayer, my mind would wander off and my prayers would turn out dull and lifeless. Everything in my spiritual life was becoming a drag. Somehow, slowly over time, it had lost its joy, … Read more

  Father God,   Tired and worn down I find myself in the midst of temptation; a baron wasteland of dust and ash with my adversary standing before me ten feet tall.   I confess that until now I have fought in my own strength Without calling for divine assistance Without putting on properly the full armour of God Without … Read more

I remember the first time I found the website Christian Pedophile. I was on a lunch break at work, and simply Googled the words “christian pedophile.” I needed answers, and I needed help. I had not been doing very well lately; I was struggling with a porn addiction that seemed to come and go but was never gone for long. … Read more

It’s been a long time now since Christmas. And whilst COVID still stays with us, it’s unfortunate that the wonder of celebrating the birth of our Savior fades into the background, if it was ever in the foreground at all. For many Christians, the idea of incarnation has become so reduced it’s no wonder it so constantly gets categorized as … Read more

In the days of church growth and inclusivity, it can be difficult to find a church that simply preaches the Word of God faithfully, since in order to be inclusive and inviting to all, it is necessary for core convictions to take a back seat, or be thrown out of the vehicle altogether. Truth is, and always will be exclusive. … Read more

Back around 2012 and 2013 I was incredibly unstable – that is when I was able to feel anything at all. Most of the time I was depressed, but when I wasn’t, I was either so euphoric I would do crazy things like riding my bike down two flights of concrete stairs, only to fall off half way down and … Read more

Forgive me for stating the obvious, but public trust is low. Very low. With every breaking story we seem to uncover a new cancerous mass of corruption in the system. Recently we were given a special insight into wall street corruption through the GameStop/Robinhood scandal. No matter where we look, everything seems to be rigged – and not in our … Read more

When we follow Jesus our shepherd, the path isn’t always comfortable. As he leads us from hilltop to hilltop, we often pass through valleys of tribulation. Here it seems, the environment is oppressive. The air is heavy, and the fire that once burned in our hearts for Christ our savior is reduced down to a few smouldering embers. Oftentimes, we … Read more

It’s now been around 17 months since I started my therapy. Things towards this end certainly seem to be a lot easier than when I first started off. I certainly feel a lot more grounded and confident. It’s been such an interesting journey of identity and healing, sometimes painful, but I’m glad God has given me the ability to stick … Read more

Wise And finally, what do we mean when we say that God is wise? There is quite a difference between God’s wisdom and ours. We gather knowledge through various means, and then apply that knowledge to the created order through things like calculation, deduction, visualization, categorization and so on, in order to bring about a desired outcome, whether it be … Read more

Creative And what does it mean that God is creative? Quite often God’s creativity is pushed to the side. We know God is creative because he’s the creator. Of what? Of the heavens and the earth (Genesis 1:1). To most Christians, it’s not all that mind-blowing. God made the natural world – the rocks and trees, all the animals, and … Read more

A number of years ago, I was really into an anime called Tokyo Ghoul. It was one of those things that just spoke so deeply to what I was going through; the internal battles, the secrecy, the shame and anguish… All these powerful themes come out so strongly. The show is almost a perfect metaphor for someone struggling with pedophilia. … Read more

Justice What about justice? We hear the word justice being thrown around a lot. Everyone’s trying to get justice but when was the last time anyone anywhere ever said anything about God’s justice? People certainly love to pin God’s name on their version of justice, whether it be the social justice of today or the “Gott mit uns” justice of … Read more

Holiness What about holiness? How often do you hear it said in bible study when the leader asks: ‘What is holiness?’ someone always puts their hand up and says ‘Oh I know, I know. It means to be set apart.’ But what never seems to get explained is just how set apart God really is – how alien and uncanny … Read more

I was recently struck by something Paul Washer said in a sermon. He was sitting in a seminary class. The teacher had just walked in and was asking people if any of them could name the attributes of God. Hands shot up all across the room. “Good” said one student, “Holy” said another. Answers came shooting in all across the … Read more

I would firstly like to acknowledge the writings of Puritan author Thomas Goodwin. Much of what I’ve attempted to do in this article is to create a good summary in my own words and expand on the various aspects I think would be useful. The mind of Christ is a subject worthy of our utmost attention if we desire to … Read more

  Is it a sin to be attracted to kids or is it just a neurological condition? Is this purely physical due to the bad neurological wiring in our brains or is there a moral component? From our perspective, it’s certainly a lot easier to claim sickness over sin. After all, if we say it’s a kind of evil – … Read more

The idea that sexuality can change is controversial to say the least. There’s a lot of voices out there that we’re all familiar with ranging all the way from the horror stories of gay conversion therapy to the boneless side A “Christianity”. To make things even more difficult most christian ministers aren’t well enough equipped to give good, solid, biblical … Read more

The Love of God is a phrase that gets thrown around often. But for those of us who have grown up in an abusive environment, the word ‘love’ may mean something very different to those who didn’t. In order to better understand the love of God, we need to be specific about what it looks like in a practical sense, … Read more

I was over at a friend’s the other day. He’s a real gamer, and we like to talk as if we are tasteful critics. Well, each of us has in fact devoted enough hours of study in the field of video games to be doctorate level. But, that day he was showing me a game that was drawn anime style, … Read more

I recently came across a blog post by a Gal who really inspired me. She is facing Bipolar Disorder, and learning to fly above the waves. Certainly, the pitfalls and strategies for Bipolar are much different than for Pedophilia. But perspective and attitude count for a whole lot. Kelsey shares some practical advice about self care, but weaved throughout is … Read more

Pedophilia is a daily struggle. There are always feelings that go in the wrong direction, and you’re faced with the choice of where to let your mind go. The decision to honor God with your sexuality is a daily victory. Daily victories are good, because together, they equal a lifetime of victory. However, it’s easy to get weary in the … Read more