Baggage or Biography?

“Yeah, He’s Got Baggage.” Recently I was talking to a friend about some of the ongoing difficulties my past sins have caused, and how I see myself. He used an interesting term to frame what I was doing: holding on to emotional and spiritual baggage. And baggage is an interesting description. It’s something you drag along behind you, and if … Read more

How to NOT be Shaken

For the last six weeks or so I’ve been going through a very difficult time. I’ve had an insanely strong crush on someone from my growth group – a young guy in his early 20’s, I’ve been experiencing problems with sleep, and because of these two factors my mood has been incredibly unstable. I lost a friend due to a … Read more

Trent’s Top 10 Christian Books

1.The Bible I’ve read this book several times and I’m still learning new things and being challenged. There’s nothing worse than those ‘super spiritual’ Christians who don’t even know their Bible. Don’t be one of these. Read your Bible. 2. John Bunyan ‘Pilgrim’s Progress’ You probably already own this book, and have already read it, but I couldn’t leave it … Read more

The Exception has a Place in God’s Kingdom

One day I was talking to Trent and Mitchell during one of our monthly meetings. I was complaining about my singleness, saying “These days people talk to singles like it’s their fault they’re single” Then Trent said “You know, our situation is different”. It was something simple but it brought me back to the real world. “You know, our situation … Read more

Our Firm Foundation

Our Foundation “How firm a foundation, ye saints of the Lord, is laid for your faith in His excellent Word! What more can He say, than to you He hath said? To you, who for refuge, to Jesus hath fled.” I have warm memories of hearing this old hymn on the radio many evenings when I was a young child. … Read more

Something I Learned from Bonsai

Bonsai are incredibly difficult to grow. They require constant care, from fertilizer, to pest control, to re-potting, to watering, to wiring, not to mention an endless amount of trimming. However, in the end, the result is something truly special. A sturdy cedar, with the delicateness of a sapling. A mighty miniature. In this paradox we find its beauty and loveliness. … Read more

Millstones

“If anyone causes one of these little ones – those who believe in me – to stumble, it would be better for them to have a large millstone hung around their neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea. Woe to the world because of the things that cause people to stumble! Such things must come, but … Read more

Loss

Living with pedophilia usually comes with significant losses; no surprise there. But unlike most other situations of loss, it can be very difficult to communicate to anyone what we’ve lost, or why we need to grieve. I mean, just imagine getting together with your friends at church or the bar and saying “I’m very sad because of being a pedophile. … Read more

Take Care This Christmas

Christmas can be a very difficult time for many of us. There are a lot of changes. Presents to buy and wrap, parties to attend (usually with alcohol), time off work, and then there’s the post-Christmas weight gain. Ugh! Amidst periods of business, there can be long spells of boredom where we can find our minds wandering as we reflect … Read more

Is Seeing A Psychologist Biblical?

When it comes to mental illness, Christians generally haven’t done very well. Quite often there’s a lot of religious advice giving. You feel depressed? You just need to rejoice! You have anxiety? You just need to have faith. OCD? Let go and let God. Bipolar? Rebuke that devil in Jesus’ name! To make things worse, well-meaning and respectable Christians, can … Read more

What Do We Do With Halloween?

Well, it’s that time of year again, the time when Christian YouTubers and bloggers put out material on whether or not it’s okay for Christians to celebrate Halloween. For once I thought I’d join them and share some of my thoughts on the subject. So… is it okay for Christians to celebrate Halloween? Many would say ‘no’ and default to … Read more

The Satanic, Cowardly, and Anti-Biblical Nature of Side B Theology

For those of you who don’t already know, there’s a new theology in town. Side B: a comfortable, easy, and embarrassment-free way to reconcile our modern understanding of sexuality and the Bible. No more awkward conversations at parties. No more suffering reproach for the name of Christ. No more looking like the stuffy old evangelical with outdated beliefs. Now you … Read more

What’s Your ‘Type’? And Why It Matters.

I have a confession to make. I was once into boys with braces. This may seem strange to most people. Why on earth would anyone be into boys with braces? But even stranger perhaps is why I choose to focus in on this detail and take it seriously. You see, for the longest time, I didn’t. I didn’t even like … Read more

St. Christopher – The Patron Saint of Pedophiles

I’m not Orthodox, but there is one aspect of the Orthodox tradition that I have lately come to appreciate. St Christopher – the dog headed saint. For those of you who are unfamiliar with St Christopher, or who have traditionally seen him depicted as a man like any other saint, may at first find it very odd to see him … Read more

Should I Kill Myself? – A Pedophile’s Torment

If you are in urgent need of help, click here and call the hotline corresponding to your country. So, you’ve just realized that you’re a pedophile, and that no matter what you do, you can’t make it go away. What do you do now? Do you kill yourself? Or do you risk life as a pedophile? Sadly this is a … Read more

Am I Demon Possessed? An Important Clarification

A while ago I wrote an article titled ‘Am I Demon Possessed?’ where I argued quite strongly (with verses) that it’s not at all possible for a Christian to be taken over and controlled by a demon (kind of like how you see in the movies). Now this is true, a person bought by the blood of Christ cannot be … Read more

Fear Not, Thou Worm, Jacob

Here in Isaiah 41:14, we see God bringing encouragement to his people: “Fear not, thou worm Jacob, and ye men of Israel; I will help thee, saith the Lord, and thy redeemer, the Holy One of Israel.“ I’ve recently been encouraged by this text. Being a pedophile is almost exactly like being a worm. Worms live below the surface of … Read more

Moving Beyond the Evangelical Right

It has been a sad thing, watching American culture slowly unravel. Many people have called this a polarization spiral – something married couples do when things aren’t working out. She pursues him with criticism, and in response, he moves away and shuts down causing her to pursue him with further criticism. However I don’t believe this to be an apt … Read more

Feeling Empty?

For the longest time I had been feeling this way. Whenever I read the Bible, nothing seemed to stand out to me. Whenever I’d spend time in prayer, my mind would wander off and my prayers would turn out dull and lifeless. Everything in my spiritual life was becoming a drag. Somehow, slowly over time, it had lost its joy, … Read more

A Prayer Against Temptation

  Father God,   Tired and worn down I find myself in the midst of temptation; a baron wasteland of dust and ash with my adversary standing before me ten feet tall.   I confess that until now I have fought in my own strength Without calling for divine assistance Without putting on properly the full armour of God Without … Read more

Why I Joined This Ministry

I remember the first time I found the website Christian Pedophile, late Spring 2019. I was on a lunch break at work, and simply Googled the words “christian pedophile.” I needed answers, and I needed help. I had not been doing very well lately; I was struggling with a porn addiction that seemed to come and go, but was never … Read more

The Wonder of Incarnation

It’s been a long time now since Christmas. And whilst COVID still stays with us, it’s unfortunate that the wonder of celebrating the birth of our Savior fades into the background, if it was ever in the foreground at all. For many Christians, the idea of incarnation has become so reduced it’s no wonder it so constantly gets categorized as … Read more

True Worship

Have you ever realized that Google isn’t as good as it used to be? There was once a time where you could type in something very specific, and the search engine would hunt out that exact thing that you were looking for and present you a list of relevant findings. Nowadays, if you type something specific into Google, you’re more … Read more

Trent’s Favorite Preachers

In the days of church growth and inclusivity, it can be difficult to find a church that simply preaches the Word of God faithfully, since in order to be inclusive and inviting to all, it is necessary for core convictions to take a back seat, or be thrown out of the vehicle altogether. Truth is, and always will be exclusive. … Read more

Am I Demon Possessed?

Back around 2012 and 2013 I was incredibly unstable – that is when I was able to feel anything at all. Most of the time I was depressed, but when I wasn’t, I was either so euphoric I would do crazy things like riding my bike down two flights of concrete stairs, only to fall off half way down and … Read more

God’s Kingdom Is Not of This World

Forgive me for stating the obvious, but public trust is low. Very low. With every breaking story we seem to uncover a new cancerous mass of corruption in the system. Recently we were given a special insight into wall street corruption through the GameStop/Robinhood scandal. No matter where we look, everything seems to be rigged – and not in our … Read more

No Dear Saint, God Has Not Abandoned You.

When we follow Jesus our shepherd, the path isn’t always comfortable. As he leads us from hilltop to hilltop, we often pass through valleys of tribulation. Here it seems, the environment is oppressive. The air is heavy, and the fire that once burned in our hearts for Christ our savior is reduced down to a few smouldering embers. Oftentimes, we … Read more

An Update – December 2020

It’s now been around 17 months since I started my therapy. Things towards this end certainly seem to be a lot easier than when I first started off. I certainly feel a lot more grounded and confident. It’s been such an interesting journey of identity and healing, sometimes painful, but I’m glad God has given me the ability to stick … Read more

Deus Nossa Fortaleza

No final da década de 1520, Martinho Lutero compôs aquele famoso hino; ‘Castelo forte é o nosso Deus’, ou no alemão original; ‘Ein Feste Burg ist Unser Gott’. Há algo sobre o alemão original que eu adoro. Faz com que soe ainda mais forte de alguma forma. Não posso dizer que referência o inspirou a compor um hino tão poderoso. … Read more

God Our Fortress

In the late 1520’s Martin Luther composed that famous hymn; ‘A Mighty Fortress is our God’, or in the original German; ‘Ein Feste Burg ist Unser Gott’. There is something about the original German I just love. It makes it sound even stronger somehow. I cannot say what reference inspired him to compose such a powerful hymn. Perhaps it was … Read more

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